Sometimes we need to experience the absence of something in order to truly appreciate it. I often debate about moving to Chicago because of the harsh and often times unbearable winters. I always get the same response from a Chicago native, “The cold makes you appreciate the warmth.” Sometimes we need to get lost in life, in order to re-evaluate things and re-emerge with a new perspective on life.
I would be proud to live a life filled with struggle and overcoming those obstacles vs. a “successful” life that was handed to me on a silver platter. I work hard towards everything I truly want because my parents have instilled that into me from birth. My father is one of the most hard-working and patient men I have and will ever know in my life. The same goes for my mother, who wakes up at the crack of dawn in order to finish all of her obligations by the end of the day.
A friend once told me, “Jen, why would you want to work hard, when you can work smart?” Working hard doesn’t mean that I want to bust my butt every day and be inefficient with my time and resources, and working smart doesn’t mean that I would want to barely lift a finger. I just want to be highly involved and passionate about whatever I am working on, life is not easy. I truly believe that anything worth having is definitely worth working for. There is no shortcut to life and I think that would be unfair if there were.
These upcoming months are really going to drastically change my life. I’m terrified, excited, and hopeful all at the same time. LA is a beast that I WILL tame one way or another. I’m from the small town of Odessa, TX, but please don’t confuse my small town humility for weakness. I will achieve the things I want in life with my high standards and morals in tact until the end. I want to inspire and help others to do the same. It won’t be easy, but I know it will be so rewarding in the end.
I have a goal. I’m constantly working towards it, every day, step-by-step, piece by piece.
This is a powerful image. Yoko Ono tweeted this picture with the caption:
“Over 1,057,000 people have been killed by guns in the U.S.A. since John Lennon was shot and killed on December 8, 1980.”
These were the glasses he was wearing the day he was shot and killed.
My favorite dresses of the night.
If you’re a bird, I’m a bird.
“Fear is nothing more than an obstacle that stands in the way of progress. In overcoming our fears we can move forward stronger and wiser within ourselves.”
So this past weekend, I got to experience one of the coolest things I have yet to try. For the last few months, I’ve had a few encounters with various celebrities and athletes. The more and more I interact with these people, I realize just that, they are just people.
Ever since I was little, I’ve always been passionate about movies. The feeling I get after I watch a good movie, is an amazing feeling. I feel like I have the ability to accomplish anything I put my mind to. I’ve always wanted to pursue acting, but never quite thought I was good enough.
Well this past weekend, I got to be an extra in a big Hollywood movie. It was such an exciting experience. I didn’t care too much if I was on camera, I just wanted to see what it was like to film a movie. I’ve seen videos of behind the scenes, and it was so surreal to actually be a part of it all. I am so thankful for the opportunity, even though it was such a small and unimportant part, to me it was everything.
I got to film a scene with two major hollywood celebrities. I was in the presence of one of the biggest celebrities in the world. It was crazy to me because before we went to set, I was worried about looking too excited. After about 10 minutes of being on set, I began to worry about looking too bored. It’s crazy how all the fame quickly fades away. I think the media and public hype these people up and separate them from the rest of society with red carpets and velvet ropes; however, at the end of the day they are just human beings that just so happen to have a job where they tell stories for everyone else to see.
I never thought I was good enough to do this or that, and I’ve realized, I am a human, therefore, I AM already good enough. So I am trying to let go of my fears and put myself out there. I don’t know what the future has in store for me, but I hope I get to inspire others and accomplish some of my life long dreams.
I’m waiting for the time when I don’t look forward to going to sleep and dreaming about these things. I want my dreams to become a reality. I just pray to God that I may get the chance and opportunity.